I felt like inserting an image yet I have no image that applies to my feeling right now. First information about Gerald was that his flight was brought forth to the coming Monday, instate Wednesday.
So how's my day? My day was fine, although it was not as easy as it use to be, because most of the moment I started thinking that Gerald was lying to me. Thinking of him being a liar. Anger verging, as usual. Nothing was replaced for myself to be calm.
Question is, he's with Joan, is he going to love her forever, and as much as he use to?
Joan is a really sweet person. Aint wanna her to suffer, because she is my friend. In order to reassure that Gerald had really give up on me, I would have to probably put up an act.
For example: going on a couple date, asking one of my buddies out and pretend to be my boyfriend. So we are very very close, at that same point Gerald would probably realise that there isnt any hope for him and that he would definately give his whole heart to Joan. But will it work out?
I was thinking what can I do to make him forget about me especially he had taken myself to be his aim, an aim which he hopes that other girls are like me. I am for who I am. It is really impossible to find someone who is exactly like me. But the most important thing, is that you do love the person for who he or she really is, and not asking them to be someone whom you are fond of to PRETEND to be not themselves.
Joan said that she thinks she's the shadow of me. Thats really unfair.
End of part one.