So, I've been going over this one scenario in my head for awhile now. Its been in my head for a couple weeks now. I think I fell inlove with my best friend. I think about her all the time. I dream about her. I just can't get her out of my head. But today, everything changed.

I had this journal entry all written out, and my computer decided it wanted to have an error and I lost it all, a good 15 minutes of writting, and well I don't know if I'm going to write it all again. I am just really really pissed off. This today, has been the worst day of my life, and I've only been awake 3 fucking hours.

This morning I woke up to my parents screaming and yelling at me because they can't find the stupid fucking christmas wrapping paper. Like what the fuck, is it so hard to look for things themselves? No. They are fucking retarded.

But onto other things.

My best friend who I WAS inlove with. I just couldn't stop thinking about her. I help her out all the time. And here I'm going to tell you a story...Be prepared.

All of her friends and mine say she uses me. I help her out, all the time, its just out of kindness because thats who I am. I'd help anybody if they needed it, before thinking of myself. I never think for myself. So a couple of weeks back she said she had her cellphone stolen right out of her jeans pocket(yes I am so sure you wouldn't feel someone touching your ass) But I went with it and felt sorry for her. I know how hard it is to lose a cellphone and go without, and still have to pay the bill and everything. So what I went and did was baught a cheap 100$ replacement cellphone for her so that she atleast had a cellphone. Was she happy? No, all she did was complain about how crappy the cellphone was. She should of been happy to just fucking have one. But no. Thats not her style. But I still cared about her and everything so I just ignored her complaining. So we were out at the Eatons Center one day and I decided I'd buy MYSELF a new cellphone, I thought I deserved one, hey, I never think of myself so this time I would.(but I secretly had the idea that if I baught a new cellphone, I'd give her my old 400$ one) So I went to the sony store with her and baught myself a brand new Sony Ericsson(the one with the 3.2mp camara and everything) I love this phone. So I gave her my old 400$ cellphone, because I care and thought it would be a nice gift to her. So what does she do with the old cellphone? Insted of giving it back to me...she pawns it off for 20$....Okay well...thats.....I was pissed about it, but I kept that anger inside and it subsided after a day or two. So my new cellphone, the headphones jack was different from my old cellphone, and I had just baught a new pair of headphones for it, they were about 60$ and pretty neat. So I gave them to her to use with the cell until I found an adapter for my new one....Then earlier today she msgs me..."I lost my purse"...FUCKING GREAT THIS RUINS FUCKING EVERYTHING..... She just lost that 400$ cellphone I just gave her....the 60$ headphones I WANTED BACK...her metropass, and all her ID....Hmmm how wonderful....... Without ID we can't go celebrate our birthday(yes its the same day) without her metropass she can't get on the bus to go out....without a cellphone she can't call anybody or be contacted, and who knows what else is in her purse...I'll never get those headphones back or the money for them either...


So I went for a walk, I needed to cool down before I exploded. There would of been Brad EVERYWHERE.

I went and got my sisters gift to my parents, I doubt she'll pay me back...she never does.

So yeah, I'm about ready to disown my best friend, fuck her. Its not worth helping somebody who cannot help themselves. Somebody stupid like her ruins the world for the rest of us. I hope she never has kids so that her genes arn't passed onto future generations. I am so fucking pissed off....