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Lately I have been eating very little like around 1 rice pudding (130 cals) a day and then I have to make myself throw it up. I can't help it I just have to!
I have been having lots of blackouts lately. Just the other day I blacked out and fell on my ass and now I bruise my ass and it hurts. My back is also fuck is in constant pain.
My new goal weight is 80 pounds even though I have not yet made my first goal wight of 100 pounds. I am now 138 pounds. Yesterday I was 134 but then for the first time in ages I let myself eat and I had 6 slices of pizza and a chocolate milk shake. I tried to keep it down but after a little while I when and threw some of it up. I know I never got it all and thats why I can't let myself eat anything for 2 whole week straight. Then I can have 1 rice pudding if I have lost a lot of weigh but if I only lost a tiny bit of weigh then I can have 4 coke bottle gummies (the small ones).
I am now a vegetarian
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You're an idiot.
Get help. [Santa.Baby]
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12/16/2007 12:37:32 AM
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To put it a bit more mildly--
There is absolutely no reason in hell, heaven, or earth for a healthy 17 year-old to weigh 80 pounds. NONE. You should be at LEAST 100 at all times. You have a serious eating disorder and you need to get help. It is never, ever, EVER healthy to be blacking out. That means your body can't function on the amount of food you're giving it. Furthermore, (c) [Bewildebeest]
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12/16/2007 12:41:56 AM
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throwing up isn't good for you, either. It deteriorates your throat and mouth linings, and literally eats away at your teeth.
AND finally, at least eat something healthy and nourishing. Haysoos. Where WERE you educated?
Please. Take care of yourself. EAT, and tell your parents, teachers, or a medical professional about this. You could die this way. [Bewildebeest]
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12/16/2007 12:43:15 AM
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blacking out is your body's way of telling you something isn't right. don't focus on the weight or the number of pounds you are. focus on exercise and toning your body. muscle and tone are muchhh prettier than bones and ribs sticking out.
please take care of your body. [~~call me KeALiE~~]
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12/16/2007 12:45:28 AM
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Don't go there. Just don't. I've seen what it does to people. [FuzzyCheeseCake]
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12/16/2007 12:46:42 AM
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I use to throw up all the time 4 or 5 times a day for yrs to keep my weight off even though I was only 16 and topped off at 79pounds I use to blackout too and hated it. I still hate that I stopped throwing up b/c I really liked it and felt good..I am like 106 now but the health prombles are still eatting me,be careful you will also get a really bad cough from throwing up aot b/c of the crap you do to your lungs...But don't let people make you feel bad or that your dumb,it's a sickness,I didnot stop until I got sent to a doc who helped me out.. But I still want to get sick just looking at food....Its hard to over come and when tv tells us gurls thats whats hot and guys like it you do it to fit in....So take care and do wants right for you....If you drink some hot limon water durning the day it will help with the blackouts...and theres zero fat and cals.....Huggs Mermz~~~~
[Mermy]
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12/16/2007 12:57:28 AM
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Ok love, I dont know whether you are doing this for attention or what, but you should know by now that throwing up blood and blacking out is really not too good on the ol body. Trust me on this, the only way that you can lose weight *and keep it off* is through exercise and eating healthily. I hope you actually take this in and not just throw it away as some 'ignorant' advice. I've been there too. [pitters.]
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12/16/2007 8:24:05 AM
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