im sick.

physically sick. my back hurt, my head hurts, i can hardly breath and i cant seem to smile.

i always smile.

i just wanna go home.

i called my mom and told her that i cant come over this weekend because im sick. so i have to stay here by myself. i dont want to but i dont want anyone to get sick because of me.

I have to get better before monday because i have classes 10- 8 and i cant miss them. and i have 2 progectts to finish and exams are coming up, i have work to do so i cant be sick. i havent even picked up food for the week or for the dinner i have to make on thursday.

while i was on tthe phone i started crying and now i cant stop.

for some reason i cant help but say the lords prayer, and for some reason it helps.