hello all it's the one and only me. (as you probably realized) I just realized i haven't written in over a month, yeah, i feel smart. so an update on my life! (not completely in order)

- started going out with the Thursday guy (he was the first in awhile that i actually said yes to...) 

- my dad came to stay with me over the Christmas break (and cleaned my house)

- my sister started in collage (the second try, but i'm so proud!)

- my dad went away again

- i got dumped (reasons to be talked of later)

- my dad came back

- and Thursday guy texts me to 'talk'

- my great grandmother was in the hospital

- my great uncle went to jail

- oh and i found out i failed one of my classes.

yeah, i'm a bit tired, not really physically but more mentally. as for why he text me it was to ask if we could stay in touch and also to tell me exactly why he broke up with me. apparently he felt so guilty for cheating on me that he, instead of telling me, broke up with me. you know, when i found out i wasn't really upset in fact i started laughing. he still has it in his head that its his fault, i guess it sort of is but i'm not blaming him. i was thinking i might break up with him but i actually wanted to keep him for awhile (rare). i actually liked him (ultra rare). he broke up with my while i was in class on a Wednesday... i managed not to break down till my last class on Friday. i just broke, full out sobbing in a practical class. i think i scared the professor, that was like 2 wees ago. but today we talked and it sort of hurt.