ok... well today is actually going good .....compared to the last 2 days.... in the past two days i lost my externship, failed a class, and now am not going to graduate in april like im supposed to....so life is pretty much sucking...but something good came out of the past two days.... my dad called and finally talked to me...its been like 4 years since i last seen or talked to my dad and he just decied to call...he said he had a sign from god that told him he better call his little girl because she needs him right now...and it was the best thing that ever happened... now im in a bind because he wants me to move back home with him...he lives in iowa and i live in pennsylvania....i have been thinking about it because right now there is nothing really keeping me in pennsylvania but my babys father...we are kinda together but he is an asshole and doesnt let me do ne thing..and always trys to run my life the way he wants to..and it just seems like were drifting apart...and i dont no if i can just get up and leave.....all my friends and and teachers think its for the best for me to just move out with my dad...i also have a best friend who lives out there.. i have been friends with her for like 13 years and she really needs me right now and she is getting married..so i really just dont no what to do...and i just hope when the time comes i make the right decison...because i dont want to ruin my life by making the wrong one....well thats it for now.. i'm pretty sure there will be plenty of more to come tonight as my mind starts thinking again...

                           thanks for listen

                                         much love

                                                       ~steph~