Had to get up at 7am this morning, I had a class at the University. I wasn't nervous even though I didn't know anybody there, but when I got there Sarah was in the class as well. Even though we don't really know each other we stayed together as neither of us knew anybody else. There were only nine girls there the rest were boys. It was a nice University, I liked the setting.

Mum kept asking me if I was alright when I got home because I was quiet, but why speak when there is nothing to say? Why live when life's not worth living?

Kim is still getting on my nerves as well. Talking about me behind me back at least I have good friends who let me know what she says, and then she decides to become clingy again, and I feel sorry for my best friend, because she thinks that Kim is splitting us up. I love my best friend too much for that to ever happen. My sister is in the same boat with a girl in her Geography class as well, so we are both going through the same thing. I guess I will miss her when she goes to University this autumn.

Why am I depressed? What makes people depressed? Why do I have such an overactive imagination? Why do I have to have such a short-temper? Why do I keep so many things locked up inside me?

One of these days my heart and brain are going to burst with too many things held inside and then I really won't know what to do. Why am I so confused? Please help me, I am so tired, but at the same time so awake. I am so confused, yet know answers to many things. I am so helpless and afraid, but I am so strong and fearless.

What am I to do?