my day sucked yesterday so bad i couldn't write in here. wrote another poem for jason 2 nights last night before and last night. i cant stop. theres something wrong with me. yesterday was horrible. just started stuff with Daniel. he wont open up to people. not even me and we're best friends. it makes me feel like i'm an untrustworthy friend when he wont tell me things or what he's feeling. he said he would try to open up to me and tell me things more. so that made me feel so much better. then after that everything was fun. we were fighting but just like for fun. calling names and things like that. i made him flatter me the other night and he made me try last night. and i did. then he said it was a cheap line. that wasn't a feakin line. it came from the heart and i meant every word of it. his ares are really pretty. they're so blue. ok then i wanted more time to argue with him and fight with him and Jason cuz it was fun so i had Jason talk my mom into letting me talk a little longer. it should have only took 2 minutes. they started talking about how it was my fault we broke up. i knew it was even though he said it wasn't. god i was so hurt last night by all that. i started crying so bad talking to daniel about it. it sucked. i cried earlier before that bcuz i felt like the worst friend in the world when daniel didn't tell me anything. so yea last night was one of the worst nights ever. my poems are surprisingly good. before Jason i could not write a love poem to save my life. now they just come so naturally. whats wrong with me? i think im going mental. today is just tiring and boring. its 10pm. this is the worst valentines day ever. or is gonna be anyways. i was going to ask Daniel to be my Valentine on that day. well this girl Shawna asked him today. my plans are ruined now. i sent him the poem i wrote to him to ask him. i just cant keep things from him as hard as i try. i had to do it. now i feel more foolish than before i sent it to him. i feel horrible. i almost started crying a bit ago but i controlled it and stopped. we always tell each other "luv ya" when we have to sign off line. i couldn't do it... he did but i just said bye. i told him i cant talk to him any more. it just hurts to bad talking to him now. i have skool tomorrow. its gonna suck. i wanna talk to him again so bad though. i don't like being on bad terms with him. he's my best friend. idk what to do any more...