&& you havn't lost your smile at all,
it's right there under your nose.
You just forgot it was there.

 So, I wonder. Do people normally get in a bad mood for no reason? Or is there Always a reason behind the broken smile? I kindof dont get things nowadays. like, i mean.. Im in a bad mood, i've felt lonely and just kindof sad the past few days. and It may be because Im about to be on the gross girl thing once again[sorry.. TMI] or it could actually be triggered by somthing.i kindof have this feeling thaty its triggered by something but cant exactly put my finger on it. I want a boyfriend, but i want to wait till someone completely takes my breath away, not just someone i like. idk. whatever. maybe Im just bored at home and have way too much time to think.

anyways.. So this guy that has liked me for over 2 years now and I might actually consider dating and all.. but as soon as I like, start considering it.. my drop dead gorgeous friend steps in the picture and now he's talking to her. whatever. I should just stop caring. Boys kill me. now CJ [my ex] and his girlfriend broke up and hes crawling back to me. He was asking me last night to fuck him and tonight he's asking me questions like "do I make you smile" and shit. Ughh. and now this one guy that i used to like alottttt is talking to me again. I hate boys! omg.

 I donttttt want school to start. i really really really really dont.

anyways.. I felt like typing when I started this entry.. but now I dont even feel like typing anymore. so im going to go. <33