Sometimes I just don't know anymore.. I'm so confused with everything going on. I'm tired of not feeling good enough. Tired of Hannah having a hold on you and not letting go. Tired of things coming up in this relationship. I feel sick to my stomache and like no matter how hard I try... how hard I work at this she's always going to be in the picture. No matter what... I know I shouldn't be jealous or uncomfortable but its just one of those things... when you dated someone for 3 years.. spent 3 years of your life when them.. all the memories and everything that come along w/ that.. its hard to get it off my mind.. I feel like she's still got a part of you and its not going to go away.. not as in you care for her.. but as she has a hold on you in a way because she still calls, messages, and everything else.. and its hurt me too that you don't step in.. that you don't just say that its not right for her to be calling and messaging you... We've been going threw this for a year now... so if it hasnt' stopped now its not going to stop.. I know I should just accept it that she's going to always be in picture.. that she someone someway is going to come back.. on her own time.. she's the one that cheated on him.. but yet she has ties on him and almost has him whipped... kinda sorta.. i dno this is hard to explain.. i dnt even know

i'll write more later...