Day four of Eric deciding he has no reason to call me. He was talking to Danny about a job over the weekend. Because where Danny works is hiring, and he said he could probably get him a job. So Danny had a half day at work today and got off early and I had him call him and leave a message since he is apparently either not answering the phone/in jail/not home. Whatever. Either way, Danny did call and leave a message. So if he'll call back, who the hell knows.

You know what the sad thing is? I didnt even like the boy. At all. Until he decided that he wanted to ignore me. Which pisses me off more than anything. Id rather someone say "hey bitch, i dont wanna talk to you anymore." Rather just disregard the fact that Im alive. So whatever.

Today has been rather boring and slow. I finally got around to cleaning my room with Danny. Johnyssa has to come back and get her DVD sometime soon. Which should suck for me since Danny has someone and I dont.

I think Eric made the comment when we were outside drinking that I wasnt completely over Danny or something that extent. I defended my side in saying that I truly was. But maybe Im not. And the sad thing is, I dont even know if I ever really was tryly in love with him. And I think Ive heard before if someone asks you if you love someone and you have to think about it, that you probably never were. Which is probably my case. I think I just want love so bad. And sometimes Im just not sure if I'll ever get it. Because sometimes I think I might not ever be truly happy with someone unless its James Brinkley.

Tony, Danny, and I were all sitting in here last night just talking about everything, which was really nice. And we started talking about who we could see each other with. Describing who who could see who with. Haha. Bassically, Tony described James to a T. Which was weird to me. And I showed Tony a picture, and he was like "YEA! thats who i see you with." It just makes me mad that everyone can see me with him. Except him. Such is life I assume.

I dont really remember anything else that I felt the need to write. I just thought Id come ramble some. I think we're supposed to take my car over to my moms and frankies today [[mom: my mom, duh.]] [[frankie: her wonderful boyfriend :). ]] so Danny can replace the spark plugs. Hurray for that. No more bouncy car.

Courtneys neice, my second cousin I guess. Christany. Which is only like 2 months old. Has Spinal Menengitis. And its really sad. I think shes gonna be okay. Theyre going to keep her in the hospital for like 7 days. To make sure that shes okay.

Anyhow. I assume thats all. Tonys home and we're gonna go eat dinner later. And then we're going to get ready and head out.

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