Lately my life has just not made much sence at all Iam not sure how to explain things that are going on but they are not good iam trying so hard to ket God guide me and help me get through right now.
There is something that iam missing in my life and it is right in front of my eyes and if i look hard enough i might find it that is what my councelor had told me the other day and also to look inside my heart it is there you will find it if you look for it.
I feel like iam falling apart and loosing my family my head is going in a thousand and one directions and iam not sure what way to go and where to go.
I have not been able to function for the last week cannot seem to get a grip on reality i feel like the whole world is closing in on me and i can't find my way out not sure how to fix this .
Tonight I have been crying my eyes out  not knowing what to do and not having anyone here to hold me and tel me everything is going to be ok my husband works nights so it is the kids and i and they are asleep so for the most part here iam balling like a baby by myself .
iam going to the hospital on thursday to see if i can get some help with this to get me back on the right track and tomorrow to the doctors my Best Friend Jennifer is taking me to both appointments to help me she is a wonderful person to help me with all of this.
I need lots of prayers to get me through cause iam not sure what is going to happen from here on out .
Goodbye To All .....