|Let the Ridiculousness OUT|
My internet is not working. Stolen internet is not reliable, go figure. I was going to write in a paper journal but I decided that if I did that my thoughts would probably never make it onto my online diary, and then my thoughts would be incomplete. We don’t need any holes in my entries, I mean I sound crazy enough without leaving things out.
Anyways, yesterday was a lot of fun. I don’t remember what I was doing before I went to the city. Oh, wait. I had a job interview. Haha. To work in the concession stand at Football games, concerts and stuff. It’s not the most exciting job, but it will help pay my bills and hopefully I will meet some fun people. The interview was a joke. I got all dressed up and everything and basically the lady just explained the job, and then said do you want it? I said I did. I might have been lying. But, so then I filled out an hour worth of paper work. Eww… but it was an okay time. Ya know, this is not the first job I’ve applied for and been hired for that I did not want. There was Noodles, and for the most part that turned out okay. Except for the part where I complained about my job ALL the time. It was stressful, and sometimes the customers and staff don’t help you out much. But anyways, I have job. I start in September. I don’t know what my hours will be like, or if I will even have many hours, but I have a job. Great! One thing I can half cross off the list of things to do.
Well, after the interview, I drove home. Then I got on a train to Des Plains. I met up with
I was crying a lot on the drive back to Dekalb today. I cried about Blake a fair bit. I realized that we are done. I mean, I don’t mean anything to him. I’m not important to him. He could almost careless if I was around or if he talked to me at all. So, that’s not good, but it is good that I have come to that realization. But at the same time I know that if he called me and wanted to spend time with me I would say yes. Not only say yes, but be super excited about it and probably have sex with him. Okay, so my first plan of action is to find me some friends in Dekalb. My second plan of action is to find me a boy. A smart boy, a good boy, but a FUN boy, a boy whose attention I don’t have to fight for.
Yep. My emotional stability has been interesting today. Lots of crying, lots of good byes. Good byes. You know both Blake and