The state of finances in my home has got worse. As a result, we actually have no home. We have to find somewhere to rent. I'm being stupid and thinking selfish thoughts like "will the cat be able to come?" and "can't be arsed to move" and "I like this house" and most stupid of all "I'll have to rip down my memory wall". I'm such a waste of space sometimes. And of course most of this is my fault because my EMA hasn't transferred from wyke to park street yet and I can't contribute enough to the mortgage. And I lost a shift this week (because a new woman started at work) therefore I'm now earning £-80 each month. This whole situation is dragging me down, but I've got to stop thinking about it and focus on my work, otherwise I might as well do what Mum wants and drop out to get a full time job.