|Feel me from the inside **|
You. I will find you if it's the last thing i do.
But i want answers. I know Sarah has ignored my texts. Has lied to me about not knowing you, about your whereabouts.
Surprisingly, i also know about Rose.
Even more surprisingly, i am happy with James. I love him. But somewhere, you're still there in my head, nawing around at my insides.
Why? I haven't a clue. We have a past of course, but i don't think that's what bothers me. It's your coolness, your ignorance, and your attitude that has upset me and angered me.
You have treated me no better than something on the bottom of your shoe. Instead of giving me the answers i deserve and letting me get on with my life, you have said some shit to Sarah, and continued to ignore my plea for guidance in getting fully over you. Give me the answers, i will walk away and never return, but you're not willing to do that for me.
Drastic situations cause for drastic measures.
Due to not being able to contact you any other way other than through Sarah, i will write you a letter asking for answers.
If you believe it is best for you to throw it in the bin and forget about it, i will continue to hound Sarah.
If i don't get anywhere that way, my next stop is to travel myself to Glasgow with James' help.
He has already looked up ticket prices.
I will sit on your god damn doorstep until you find me, days, weeks, months if necessary.
No, i'm not a stalker, i'm a young woman who has been used and abused by someone on the internet who has broken my heart and who isn't willing to give me the answers that i deserve.
Several people are continuelly telling me to go to the police, to tell them of my findings. For some reason, i've been hesitant, but now more than ever, the prospect is growing on me. I won't let you get away with how you treated me.
On other news, i wish you all a very merry christmas.