Well i think i've made a decision last night. I think i'm going to leave my husband. Not for another woman but just because i just can't stand his constant horniness that he never learned to control so if i don't give it to him he goes somewhere else. just to clarify i'm pregnant so sex hurts i'm not really the devil or anything like that just sometime when you constantly feel like pucking, your head hurts, or you are just uncomfortable all over you on top of the fact that sex generally hurts you just don't feel like having sex all the time. i'm a little worried that i won't be able to handle life by myself but i guess i just don't want to keep hopping he'll change just to find out he won't and then really feel stuck. i think it's better then me staying in a relationship i can't really trust. it's like he says our relationship isn't purely about the sex but he doesn't ever make me feel like it's really not. he's also just being a bad influence on me and incouraging my bad habbits but yet he never seems to be so incouraging when i want to change for the good. i know divorce is bad especially when there are kids involved but heck what am i supposed to do stay with a man that goes somewhere else when he doesn't get what he wants anyways. now i've just got to figure out how to actually tell him and what i'm going to do for work and housing once i leave. to bad i'm in florida visiting my mom for like a month makes both of those a little harder. well i think that's about it here, ttyl, bye.

by the way thanks for those who responded to last email i appreciate it.