ok ok ok! I can't take it anymore! i can't believe how much this idea is haunting me! this is killing me! i've become obsessed with the idea that i don't wanna abandon M. wut if i stoped loving him?i'm feeling as if i'm infidel to him! and it's scaring the hell out of me! why? i think i'm projecting the fact that dad "abandonned us" on us me and M.! i love him:S but i 'm always feeling that my chest is sooo heavy and that at a certain point i'm gonna faint! i wish i could talk 2 m. but i dnt wanna scare the hell out of him! the thing is i dnt wanna break up with him i'm just scared to do that! and i'm scared he'd missunderstand the whole thing:S anyway! i hope someone who passed through that would explain it to me and tell me things are gonna be alright! otherwise i'm going through a panick attack! GOD HELP ME!