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[[in the shape of your heart]]
I am the one burning holes in your back with my piercing eyes. I am the child humming the tune you hear on your death bed. I am the one that shed's you light. your lantern in this cold dark night. bringing color back to your cold pale skin. bring your life back, forgiving your sins. I don't know how to be happy. It's just so hard.
I love my family, but they bother me so much. Yesterday was my birthday. Usually there would be my WHOLE family. My brother, Jonathan, My other brother, John. My sister, Victoria. and my cousins. And close family friends, Heath, Mark, Nick, Heather, Franklin.
and Yesterday, my parents were the only one's there, as soon as I blew out those candle's, my mom went to sleep and My dad, too go watch T.V
Now everyone's gone. I feel like god's came and taken them from me.
And I feel horrible because he took them for a reason. I was Greedy. I was Selfish. Inconsiderate. Now I'm realizing all of my insecurity's. I'm everything I don't want to be. I say I care so much for other's ..but when I really take a look at myself.. I'm only caring for me. I've become. My perfect enemy.
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