Matthew told me yesterday that he has had sex with two other people and made out with some chick since we have met. I have only known him two months. He asked me how this made me feel and honestly I felt nothing. I didn't give a sh*t or care. Today is a little different. I am kind of angry and upset. Part of me still doesn't care. I still really like him.

I hate the way I am sometimes. I don't tell anyone what I think or feel. I don't even tell myself sometimes. I don't know how to think or feel anymore. I feel lame. I mean what kind of person cannot express their feelings?