I got to spend some time with my brother the other night. Normally we talk about general bullshit but we somehow got to talking about me and the things going on in my life. It all started when I said "And for the record, I am NOT going to Mexico". He laughed and I started going on and on about all the shit that I've been going through with Tiffany and we, inevitablly get to the topic of my trip (as excited as I am about it, I'm sad that I'm going to miss his 21st birthday) He said something that I had to consider for the sake of fairness; he said that I shouldn't confuse what I was feeling for Holly for "real" feelings ('real' in the sense that I'm having feelings for her because of what I'm going through with Tiffany). I considered this possibility because it's the kind of person I am. I also know that all feelings can't be explained. I know that what I feel for Holly is genuine. I know this because I've felt this before only this time, it's stronger. That's good enough for me. He also quoted me a line from 40 year old virgin which, when delivered, made me laugh my ass off and also made good sense. In the end, nothing in life is totally safe and everything has a potential for failure. Maybe the trick is to stick to it and not give up.