Like my opener said, this is my place to vent. None of my friends will know about this, unless I tell them; I don't plan on telling them. Currently I'm in my fifth and final year of college. I will be done in December..

I don't know if it is something about me, but I just feel like I get used a lot by friends. I've noticed that more and more I've been distancing myself from others that I don't see as true friends.

Looking back, I noticed the decline start about the time my current roommate moved in. She is in the same major as me so we have all the same classes together. At first I thought it would be great and fine. Then I learn. I find out that she is a lesbian, not like there is anything wrong with that (and I should have seen that coming), but she is one of those "whoa is me; my life is so hard because I'm a lesbian. I hate men" type. She makes life hard on herself by trying to flirt with guys and then gets mad if the show interest. She likes to drink to deal with her sexuality. When that happens, she likes to pick fights with guys. If I wasn't living with all the chaos that she causes it would be a pretty interesting one-girl drama fest to watch. I'm not so lucky.

So, this past summer she comes out to a majority of our mutal friends and what not. Then they start to see the drama she causes. I wanted to move out and be done with her, because she can be a violent drunk. However I was beyond screwed with my lease in a college town. So, I've been sticking it out, trying to anyway. It just seems that others have become tired with her behavior but yet tolerate it. It seems as if they pitty her. NEWS FLASH! She isn't the first gay person in the world! But, anyway, I need to move on cause I could go on about how she is the worst roommate ever (I don't think she has taken out the trash more than 5 times since she moved in, I have to tell her to do her dishes, and she's never lifted a finger to clean but just mooches off of me...).

Another thing that just blows my mind is how rude some people can be.

One example is class. I can not stand when people just talk and talk when the teacher is lecturing. I mean, this is important stuff we are supposed to be learning. Today, people kept going on and several people around me asked them to be quiet. With no luck, I finally just looked at him and said "Would you just shut the fuck up?" It worked but I'm probably the bitch now.

Another example is one of my friends. She recently got engaged and I'm totally happy for her. However, last night she asked several of our friends would be her bridesmaids. I would have been shocked if she asked me because I know she is better friends with the other girls. But what gets me is that she asked them in front of me! To me, that's just down right rude!

I guess I just don't know about people anymore. I just get so frustrated sometimes.... hence why I made this my place to vent.

Til next time...