April fifteenth

is my birthday. I am 22, and all I can think about is how I never had a boyfriend, and I am supposed to learn certain things at a certain age. Yet, I refuse to, because I am don't know.

I refused to learn, because I don't know.

I am focusing on LSAT. I feel like I am isolating myself, and I feel like I am getting further away from human beings. I can go without talking to anyone really. like I'd rather not talk most of the time.

I see a lot of beautiful people at the library and I don't have an excuse. I feel like.

well, I am not speaking to who used to be my best friend.

my one other friend doesn't care enough. I am not sure why. I guess I can't compare what he did for this girl he really likes to what he would do for my b day. anyways I don't wanna think about it. people disappoint me. and there is nothing I can do to change that I don't feel like forcing people to do stuff with me because I was born 22 years ago today I might just treat myself to a nice fancy breakfast tomorrow. I don't need company because mos of the time I feel like I am alone anyway.

I don't make effort to get what I want and need. I honestly am not giving a shit, and that blows up in my face. I dno't know what I am talking about to be honest with you.

I will be in holland in 2 days.can't wait