Yesterday my mentor told me something that not even I was vrry conscious abt. He said to me "the reason you are still hanging ard here is because yiu are afraid to go out. before you found this place, your world fell apart and collapsed and you had to shoulder it alone. it was very painful for you. you don't ever want that to happen again and you hang to everything you have now, cos you are afeaid to lose what you have now. " When he said that, I burst into tears. cos he dug out the Deep pain that lay so deep in me. It was the Indeed most painful time of my life. I was facing the emptiness.of life and I realised how my soul was dying in marriage. The pp I thought I could trust couldn't be trusted. my own parents cannot be trusted to give me the support i needed and instead they rubbed salt into wound by strongly objecting the very actions I needed to save myself from death. I felt betrayed and abandoned. I felt so alone.