this weekend was rough cause id didnt see my little man from wednesday till sunday evening (well i saw him for 10 mins thursday but that dont count really). i missed him like crazy but it was also good to get a break. sometimes i find parental emotions completely contradict themselves. i hate being away from my little man but i always feel better for the break when ive had it.

the reason this weekend was great is that tt didnt have his kids either so we spent nearly the whole weekend together. me and k went to see batman on friday nite then tt came and stayed over at mine. saturday was obviously the first game of the season and tt k n and h were all going to cov it was also tt's frst ever time at the football so he was like a hyperactive kid. me tt k n h and s all went for breakfast then i took tt n k and h to cov. after the football i picked them up and dropped them off in town after id sorted the dog out i picked up s in a taxi and we met up with the others. a very drunken night of karaoke and ice cube swapping followed but we all had a great time. n is tt's best mate and he pulled me to one side and told me that he'd never seen tt as happy as he's been since we've been together he also said that tt loves me to pieces so he loves me to pieces to and gave me a big hug it was so sweet and ive decided to make it my mission to find n a girlfriend cause he is so lovely and he has a heart of gold plus i know he really wants to find someone. sunday morning was spent lazing inbed with tt. then we went to see h and s so that tt and h could watch the football together.  i really felt that things took a major step forward this weekend i feel so much closer to him now. the only downside is that on sunday night i was laid in bed by myself and it felt like part of me was missing. wenever we are apart i feel like part of me is missing.

i have never felt like this about anybody before all my little nagging fears have gone away i feel truely happy  happier than i ever thought it was possible to feel.