I have been rolling something around in my head for a while, and I don't know what to do with it.
Leonard said that part of why he felt that he needed to end our relationship was that I had built up several huge walls around myself, and that every time he thought he got through, I just kicked him out and built another wall for him to break down. I don't see myself that way. I know that I hold some things close, but mostly just because who goes around telling people that there mom is bipolar or that there dad is an emotionally abusive drunk, or in my case both. I know that I tend to keep that information to myself, but really, is that weird?
I asked Red about this on Saturday because he knows me, and he knows the things that I keep to myself. His comment was that I am not that way with him, but that he could see why someone would say that because I don't like to talk about my family that much. That is really true; I don't like to talk about my family. Which is worse though, keeping some things on a need to know basis or freaking people out with the truth early? I can see how that first date would go:
Princess: By the way, just to keep you from saying that I am hiding something from you, I need to tell you some things.
Random Guy: Ok, is this something bad?
Princess: I don't think so but you might
Random Guy: Well just tell me
Princess: Ok, my mom is bipolar and my dad is a drunk and emotionally abusive
Random Guy: Nice to know you
Ok, so that might be a little bit of an overstatement of how someone would react, but really, how do you tell someone something like that without totally freaking them out? It has just always been easier for me to say that I have some family issues and leave it at that. At what point does holding back become pushing out?
Quote of the day: "There's something that happens when you discover the truth about someone, I know a little about this. The truth changes everything." Sydney in the television show "Alias"
Much Love From Princess