Ahhhhhhhh!!!

There are only 2 days left until I make the big move. I don't know if I really am ready for this.  I have everything lined up, and my new place is really cool, and so is the new job, but I really could use about one more week of time in Springfield to pack and say good bye and to be ok with leaving.  I am going out tonight with a big group of people at my favorite local bar, and I bought waterproof mascara just for the occasion.  I know that it is a great thing that I am leaving, but why can't I just stay?

Leonard has been spending more time with me lately.  He says that nothing happened with the "friend" that he took to Dylan's wedding, that she was just a friend.  Trust me, it was easy to see that she was in no way just a friend.  I don't know that I want to get back together with Leonard, but I have definately enjoyed spending time with him a little more.  Its nice to be together.  He spent the night last night (we didn't have sex) and held me all night.  We talked a little, and he said that he had concerns that when I left for Capitol City I would never see him again.  I know that it won't be often, but I know that we will still talk and that when I am home or in Springfield I will want to see him.  He seemed to be not to sure about that.  I guess that I can only feel so bad for him about it because he is the one that broke up with me.  If it was up to me, we would still be together and figuring out how to make the distance thing work.  Oh well.

I was home two weekends ago to for Peidmont's town festival where I play tuba in the community band and to see/say good bye to Red.  He also put a cd player in my car while I was home, so now I am living in the 90's in that thing.  It was great to see him and to get to spend some quality time with him.  We really caught up on a lot of things.  He is thinking about joining the military, and is really jealous of me for getting out of Peidmont since he hasn't yet.  I say yet because I know that he will, he just isn't quite ready yet.  We talked for a long time and I definately feel better about the fact that we won't see each other for a while.  I don't really know why though. 

Ok, I am at work, so I should probably get back to work. 

Quote of the day: "It hurts to grow.  Anyone who says it doesn't is lying."  Meredith Grey on televisions Grey's Anatomy.

Random thought before I leave, if my life had a narrator at this moment, would the narrator say that I was about to make the biggest mistake of my life, or that I was about to do what I have always been ment to do?  And does it matter?

Much Love From Princess