Yeah, I’m still around. :>)
I haven’t updated in a long time because (and maybe this has to do with the fact that I’ll be 40 in a little over 2 years) I’ve been pondering my life, which has undergone a lot of changes. Six months ago I became [online] friends with an awesome woman (one year younger) who has just about every perfect quality that I could hope for in a woman—super smart, geeky (into comics and horror movies like me), life experienced, tough, cute, good body, sexual explorer (kinky), and on and on. Yeah, she has her faults just like the rest of us, but she’d make an outstanding girlfriend—and possibly wife.
Only problem is that she and another guy (who she met online about 8 or 9 months ago) are kind of an item, so for now we’re just friends—even though she herself said that if she had any brains she’d choose me b/c the other guy is a mental mess. So we’ll see. Anyway, without reveling too much about her, she's very sexually open and has lead quit a life. She's helped me expand and explore my own sexual fantasies and opened up all kind of doors that were always there but were closed to me. I've become more interested in the BDSM lifestyle and recently joined Fetlife, a social network for kinky people. That's been interesting, for sure. I've also been listening to some really good podcasts such as Freedom of Fetish and Masocast--to name a few, which have also greatly helped me better understand the lifestyle.
She also helped get me out of the funk I've been in since my wife and I separated 17 months ago--we're slowly moving into the divorce process (luckily we both feel that lawyers won't be necessary since neither of us wants anything from the other.) I'm also strongly considering moving to Las Vegas (well, one of the towns close to it, anyway) within the next 4 or 5 years. I'm pretty tired of CA and, really, the only thing keeping me here is my job, which I'm starting to get tired of. Lately I've started getting back into exercising b/c I'm sick of my weight--at 265 lbs (6'1" tall), I'm the heaviest I've ever been.
So, yeah, things are slowly progressing finally. And who knows... Maybe one of these days I'll actually be genuinely happy with my life. :>)