|Behold A Rebellion|
As thoughts go through your mind every second of your life, today this morning a sad but happy thought of my cousins leaving came to mind. My 3 cousins (out of 20) came to vist me and my family from their home country. The older one of them was 12, then was 8, and 6. The two youngest ones were just soo adorable! Although my cousin, for a twelve year old was pretty bossy and trying to be the most mature of them all. When i did something wrong (which she got mistaken cuz i ddnt) she would talk as my mom. From a twelve year old that pretty anoying. I was sad that they would leave because i wouldnt see them for another year and they are pretty entertaining and i love them. I was also happy cuz i can get back to hanging with my friends, just chillen around. Once they left i was on MSN talking to now my ex-boyfriend. My parents dnt approve him and they're opinions mean a lot to me. My friends think the same. Also he keeps saying all this nonsence which i find idiotic because he does not think of the reality and wat actually probably is going to happen. He kept saying that he loves me but its just non sence. He doesnt really. He does not let me be independent. He calls me every two hours and freaks out when i hang with my guy friends. I wanna have freedom for crying out loud! I kept saying to him the reality of whats going to happen to me in my life and what should. Anyways continuing about my day, I have school reading to do and I'm reading this book called The Princess Bride. It get pretty boring in the beginning but once you get into the book it picks up the paste and get into actal action and get pretty interesting. im enjoying it very much now. Later on during the day one of my best friends came over just to hang out. First thing we did was take a dip in my pool. My little brother came out with a plate of fries so we my friend and i decided to steel one as a joke :P. He got pissed at me and pulled off my strap of my bikini!!!! So i had to do up the strap to my arm to actually go swiming. It turned out fine though. While my friend was in the pool just chillen i went out and started to tan we both talked to eachother my friend from the pool and myself from the chair which i tanned on. We got out and ate some yummiiii nacho's! We talked about her summer trip and how much fun she had. I found it amazing. Once we got washed up from showers and such we went down to my basement blasted some music and since we both felt like dancing we kind of did. Then my puppy Choco came down and started chasing us. Haha, we were playing around with him so we pretending to be scared of him. Who knows.. we might of ;). After all that bunch of fun my friend and i went upstairs to watch t.v. We started watching Canada's Next Top Model. Some of the girls there we really lets just say bratty! Anyways so now my friend and i are here up in my room just talking bout our lives and drama. We just wrote an email to my ex-boyfriend . You can read it if you want i dont mind ..
i'm sorry, richard, but you have to be realistic in this situation. i want to play the field. my parents think you're obsessed with me and i agree. i don't want somebody who clings onto me, i want to be independent and do my own activities. Im sorry if this hurts you. But with you calling me all the time i dnt have time for stuff i would really like to do. also, going to a new school, it would be nice to be single in case i meet someone i like. also, if i do have a boyfriend, i want my best friends and family to approve of him as my boyfriend. i need a boyfriend who i can truely love, i've known him well, and that i can make a commitment to. i'm sorry if i you're crying but i need to be honest with you, and we need to tell each other about our opinions of this relationship and how it's gonna work. i would never want to lie to you. maybe this news is too hard, too fast but i needed to tell you my feelings. don't worry you'll another girl who truely loves you. goodbye, richard
Is it too harsh?? Oh well i felt pretty relieved after. Im still waiting for his reply. Hopefully he wont take it too hard. My friend is reading these magazines well we are both listening to the radio. This song song Forever by Chris Brown is on! I love it ! Anyways im gonna get going now gonna prbly go out somewhere with my friend :)
Till next time i write,
With lots of Love ,