so today was pretty good!
i have come to the decision though that i DONT want to do band!
im not sure how to tell my parents
& the fact that i havent told him yet is probally making it worse
but i just have such a hard time telling them that i dont want to do this
i love middle school band
i really do but i love the music not playing my instrument
and i think i've been confusing the 2
im pretty sure anyone whos in high school band anywhere will
gladly tell me that it takes up most of my time and i have to be completly
in love and dedicated to it and im just not
honestly i think i have loved band in the past for the wrong reasons
i loved how it felt like a home away from home and i loved listining
to the different beats and rythems of the music we played but i never really loved or had a passion
for playing the flute
& even last year i hated practicing at home just bc i couldnt hear the music
and it wasnt fun
& i think if you want to be in high school band you need
to love your playing and the music enough to do the not so fun stuff
and i just dont
but like i said earlier i really dont know how to break this to my parents
i know they'll be dissapointed in me for going this far and backing out
but honestly i didnt want to go this far in the 1st place i just didnt know how to tell them
& i do love the music but thats about all
despite that ordeal today was pretty good
lunch is definitly the highlight of the day
mainly bc i usally dont eat and we have an hour
in there so its pretty much a free hour
i wish i had it 7th bc then we would just have fun then leave
drama sounds like its gonna be a blast!!
my teachers a bit on the strange side but he
seems like a pretty funny teacher.
i have 2 classes with skittles(one of my vary close friends!!)
and i have 1 class with deven
i have lunch with pretty much everyone and for the most part im
happy with the people in my classes i just
wish i had at least one class with cassie : (
but speaking of cassie i realized last night that i was just over reacting
& i DONT like her like that!
speaking of last night...
last night was so amazingly powerful!!!!
everyone was crying and i think cassie made i big step closer to
giving her life up to christ
well im talking to deven so i will
write a little later!!
oh & MACKENZIE GET ON I MISS YOU AND WANT TO TALK TO YOU!!!!