Finding Myself is kinda a hard thing for me to do but its a journey into the unknown of obstacles, mazes, turn arounds, mysteries that I, myself have to figure out to reach my true self on it own to connect within the soul.  Finding myself is a path that im taking to find out my true calling in life, to find and seek the help from others to find the true divine purpose of who I am.  Do I know myself all the way, NO I DO NOT, but im willing to take the challenges and pathes of the journey to find out who i am.  How am I goin to find myself to seek out my true self? The Key answer is to be able to meditate, yearn, visualize, relax in deep meditation and mediation.  I do not claim to be who I am but the question is, when am i going to find my true self to be who i am to be who am i seeking for?  One day at a time is what it takes, to take criticism, to learn, to grow, to manifest to who i am truely am.  The Influences in my life go way beyond just the physical plane.  The Influences in my life are My Friends that i truely love as friend thats been thru thick and thin with me online and offline.  My Dad was an influence that i didn't get the chance to take up on cause i was afraid, scared, ashamed of myself to be who i was, to break all rules and try to follow his leadership.  But i Failed as a human being to do that.  Im not perfect, nor do i claim to be, but i will not stand up against someone that is in higher authority of me that is in the right.  But the other side of that is, you afflict me, and your higher authority than I, i will stand up against you and take my stand against you.  I am A Soldier, Warrior, and All of what God has CREATED me to be.  I will find who i am, when will i do it, the time is unknown.  but for now, I live day by day at one day at a time.