So I don't know really where I stand with married man right now... it's all kinda up in the air... I know he doesn't want me to stop loving him... but who would? Everyone wants to be loved, to feel loved, and to be loved by more than one person. But I can't love him if he doesn't love me back. And he's slightly reassured me that he loves me back... but he does things that make me think he doesn't. And then he does things that convince me that he cares for me as much as I care for him. I told him about a week ago that I'd back off when his wife comes home 'n we'll just be friends... wanting him to tell me he loves me too much to be just friends with me... and he said... "that's very considerate of you... it's one of the reasons I love you." What the fuck was that about? So then I started going through this process to try to make myself have less feelings toward him. So then we almost broke up yesterday at work... While I was at work at petco, he went to the bar as always... and I dunno it's just all so confusing because when I came in he was all smitten with this bitch... and she wanted to come home with both of us which is cool with me but she just wasn't my type... so I left n told him to come meet me in the car when he's done... about 2 minutes later he came out and almost got hit by a car crossing the street... gets in the car and starts talking to me about how he's so happy... so I said if you're happy, get your ass back in there with her and be happy. So he paused and looked me straight in the eye and said "but baby, I'm not happy because of her. I'm happy because of you. I've been waiting for you to come pick me up." So I'm completely confused about where I stand with him.. and I need to have a long talk to figure out what exactly he wants... I just don't know when I'm going to do it.