|Inside the mind Taylor D.|
My first entry got erased... So pissed but I will get over it. IT WAS REALLY GOOD TO!!! I am sure that you would have enjoyed reading it, but here is a summary of what it said... This is basically just here to get some names out there and give a little info on my past to better understand my present.
So I started off by saying that I am a freshmen in college. I am 19 years old... I took a year off (or should I say a year on) to do a program called City Year.... It wasn't much of what I would like to call enjoyable, but it was a good experience. Community service and tutoring kids was the main jist but there is also a lot of fratranizing with the senior corps which was fun to do behind the staffs back. And when you graduate from it you get a wonderful sense of accomplishment...
Here is where I went off into info about my past boyfriends. I have only had two. The first one I dated from the end of 9th grade to middle of 11th grade. His name was Richard and he was my first love, first kiss, first... you know what.... I was super attached to him but... you know... It didn't last... We dated on and off for about a year but me but him didn't work out... Him and one of my supposedly best friends at the time had their own little agenda on the side, so.... I went much more in depth with this earlier... but.... It all got erased and I just don't feel like typing it all again.
This is where I started rambling on about my second boyfriend Troy and how perfect for me he was and how I basically messed it up by cheating on him with this guy named Kenneth. To put it basically, at one point he had been writing to his ex-girlfriend how me and him were damn near bout to break up and how I wasn't going to get no ring no time soon (on facebook it said we were engaged) and she was all excited cause she thought that there was hope for her. I felt betrayed and so about 3 months later was when I cheated. We also had a lot of problems with arguing and stuff. Him and I were knew each other about 3 years before we got together and I guess you could say we were something like best friends... But now we aren't on speaking terms really anymore... We write each other occasionally on facebook but yeah.... It doesn't sound like I am hurting over it but I really am. It was a lot more poetic on the first version and it also went into how we got together, why I cheated, why he betrayed with his ex and all that good stuff, but I might just rewrite all that on another entry in the future.
And finally here is where I wrote about my current boyfriend, Tim. I basically started going into how me and him are going pretty good at the moment, but how I won't alow myself to fall for him for fear of hurting him. I can't trust him and he can't trust me.... I don't know how far me and him will get with all of this in mind. It has only been a month so maybe it will all come with time...
And basically here is where I concluded the long entry by saying how many friends I lost during these relationships which was 8, and I lost my heart in the process as well.... For more interesting and detailed entrys on any of the things I have talked about, stay tuned for future entries.
Please believe me.... My life gets pretty interesting.