I long for a culture of transition, we have become content with stagnation, where technology is a means in itself. I feel like I am betraying myself by continuing to use or write on the internet, the culture blackhole that it is, yet I find myself using it as the only way of communicating to people on a wide-scale.
In using the internet to spread worthwhile ideas we water them down, any piece of internet, any information, anything at all is merely a drop in the ocean of pure crap; a needle in a shit pile is still covered in shit. And in my use of the internet to subvert it, somewhat unsuccessfully, is to accept my own ineptitude.
I long for more, so much more, something tangible, definable, different, distinguished, and my own. We have long since defined post-modernism and the in and outs of the pointlessness of originality, and still some lingered sense of our own speciality, instilled in us by our parents makes me want to be special, makes us all want to be special.
At the moment I feel equal amounts of despair, loneliness, frustration... I am tired... and I am rambling, I don't know where this is going...