Today we did a tour for the new job and they said it may only be half a year or you may get hired in. It's a bit scary looking. I know they say no worries and you get training but I'm not so sure. I still want to get some kind of training before we start a family. 50% of the girls have already worked there in the past. I'm not so sure and the others thought the same thing I think, judging by their expressions. Idk, little bit nervous about it and happy that it doesn't start until next week.

I'm kind of really, really nervous about this job. Decided to come back on here and vent. It seems like so much to learn and it's a month of training so it's not right away but what if the others feel comfortable on their own before me, learn before me, eek. And then yet another my health insurance is denying paying for part of my ambulance because they keep saying I need to show my car insurance has maxed out there coverage and I dread calling- it seems easy, just call and ask for them to show proof, wait and send with a new letter but I thought it was going to be easy before when they told me they need papers from the actual ambulance service. And on top of that, the same place I tried to work declined me but I got in through this employment agency instead. My husband says not to worry about it because I was just trying in that place and an employment agency to help me. It's true and I wasn't sneaky or anything. I just hope I can learn all this. And tomorrow I gtg to the doc to do some kind of physical exam that supposedly is only going to take 15 minutes. We shall see. Feel like I got a slap in the face, feeling down about the decline but I'm still working there through another way but felt so down when I read that. It was dated almost 2 weeks ago. But then to also find out about the ambulance issue, ugh. I don't wanna get up tomorrow for the appointment but now I have to. Not too early or anything but just brings me down. 

I know I need to cheer up, this isn't my life forever. I'll get through this.