Woot! Just came back from the movies about an hour ago. Went to see Fired Up! with Sami. I thought it was going to be kinda dumb and not that funny. It was awesome!! Yeah it was kinda dumb but it was awesome and hilarious. Such funny jokes and snide remarks... a lot of allusions to life and it was underlying with a love story (of course). It was great and funny. Then we went to SanSai - a little overpriced but it filled me up and it was tasty. Yum chicken bowl, miso soup, and free potstickers. Yum. Haha yeah so i had fun.
On other news I had a very weird and disturbing dream. I actually woke up feeling bad, which I know it was just a dream but still it was weird. Okay so its in the future, but not far future. I have my own room (Kari Lynn, Brandon, Blake :( and Bert are moving out in two weeks), so I am hanging out at home with some friends. So, i go back to my room with Chris my friend. He is kinda like a brother to me. He is only two years younger me and I call him Soph-a-more (last year I called him fresh-er-man). I love him like a brother and hes so cute. He is very flirtatious and hes darling. But anyway we go back to my room and we are just talking sitting on my bed. Suddenly, he grabs me and kisses me - very passionately. I kiss him back for some reason, then things start to get even weirder. He pulls me down on the bed and we start making out a lot. He pulls off my shirt and I start unbuttoning his shirt. We pull off each other shirts and I start for his pants... and he grabs for mine. He rolls over on top of me and things get, um, fun. We continue this and we keep kissing and going at it. This whole time we still have our underwear on at least. He starts to go for the underwear and all of a sudden I realize, crap, I have a boyfriend and I should not be doing this. I push him off and tell him that i can do this. we both kinda get awkward and we both know that it is wrong. I of course feel awful. So how do I make it up? Do i tell Matt about it? No of course not. The next thing I do is I have Matt over and I do the same thing with him, all the while feeling bad. I woke up soon afterwards and felt like crap. Im wondering if that was normal... cause i have had this dream two or three times and ever time I felt awful every time afterwards. I almost feel like I should tell Matt about the dream, like I need to confess to him that I had this dream. Is that weird or what? Its weird cause Chris I thought was like a brother to me. Honestly I think I am trying to protect myself because I am falling for Matt, and my subconscious is telling me something. At least i stop myself every time right? Should i feel bad for having this dream? Because I feel pretty bad. Maybe I really do like him because i think any other time i wouldn't feel this bad, I would be like oh whatever just another weird dream. But i feel like i actually cheated on him. Arg, how weird. And sadly in the dream i enjoyed Chris. God that's weird. Oh well its about 1030 here and I've got to be at school tomorrow... Im helping out Chris. Gotta get my Leadership hours. Five and a half down, four and half to go. After tomorrow only one and a half to go. Sweet! Okay im kinda tired. Helping Sophamore, then i have got a bio test on monday - four chapters that i havent read yet - and i have some Lit homework to do (maybe)...
So nighty night, please gods give me good dreams no more of this one. And oh yeah no more waking up in the middle of the night in a sweat and needing water. Please just normal dreams and sleep. Please!
HAHA... okay lets see if I return to normal sleep!
