|Nothing Insteresting - I Swear|
I do no want to break up with him... I realize now that I actually love him. I got scared and began to push him away. Now he keeps ignoring me... frick. but if i do break up with him, which i really really do not want to happen (i love him). damn i actually fell for a guy... but anyway if i do break up with him ill do it with this letter:
I’m sorry for doing this in such an elementary way, but I feel that you left me no other choice. You have ignored and avoided me for so long and as much as I do not want to do this I believe it has to be done. Please know that I really do not want to do this.
You have to understand that I have liked you for awhile and I still do like you. But, when I get close to a person I always freak out. I am not comfortable with getting too close to a person and was slowly realizing that you were getting close. I freaked out. I am not the type of person to have a close relationship with anybody. You are the first person that I actually felt anything for. This is why I wanted to talk to you, but I know how it sounded – so for that I am sorry. I got scared because I started to fall for you and I cannot allow myself to get that close to anybody. I wish you would have given me the chance to explain, but you didn’t. I wish we could have worked this out – I wanted to, but I can understand that you don’t. I can accept that. I just wanted to say I am sorry. I hope we can still be friends.
i think im screwed. now that i know that i truly love him, i also think he doesnt feel the same way. and i kinda want him to be my first.... shit i am so screwed. ARG