lol. the huge laundromat down the street  has free wifi. i think i get it here at my place, because, i am actually feeding off of someone's internet amusingly enough, its a lot more stable than it was at my aunts house... lol stupid bitch. i still hope her tv explodes.

i smoked tons of hookah today. i've been perpetually dizzy. its like being drunk but not as horny. hahaha

i really like the free internet. life is looking up so far. i'm super happy. the stock of condoms is back so no more worries about that. took another preggo test, yay for negatives.

the bf is still treating me well and we are having  a good time in our barely furnished and barely paid for apartment. i really hope i get some funds going soon. i dont want to lose this place. its far too good to ruin. my credit card balance is up way far as well. i guess the payment i puit in for 170 hasnt gone through, which is super annoying. but i suppose itll have to do.

geez i've never felt so independant in my life. i love the feeling of not really needing anyone. once i getmore stable it'll be like a gigantic FUCK YOU to everyone who tried to say i wasnt going to make it and also to the people who didnt try to help.

seems like all the prayers i've been getting have been working out. yay wishes and hoping.

just need a little bit of faith. though everyonce in a while i have to be reminded that i CAN do this. i honestly think once i get a little more settled things will be perfect