How many painkillers and anti depressants are too many?, have had twelve ibuprofen, twenty paracetamol, twenty four Prozac and thirty Citalopram all washed down with twenty stubby beer bottles, took more when I tried to kill myself incidentally, not trying to do that now or bpast it's a good thing, just so very tired of living, don't actually want to die, as strange as it sounds, just don't want to be here anymore, just want to feel better. One day of having a clear head where I wasn't full of hate, bitterness and anger would be great but i don't see that happening, did really well for a long time (kind of) but am now back where I was, in a strange way I feel it's where I should be. This isn't reading well which is annoying because I only write to give myself a vague recollection of my thoughts and feelings and this will not be helpful although nothing I have written has been helpful, just affirms my feeling of worthlessness and emptiness, I'm missing something but I don't know what?