last night seemed like it lasted forever. it's probably because i took that nap after work. my body just wouldnt let me sleep. i stayed up on youtube watching the story about marilyn monroe. it was pretty interesting. i tried turning everything off and just laying down. but my head kept spinning. i really can't say what time i ended up falling asleep. way past 2 i believe. plus i kept waking up multiple times. i feel better this morning. but not as well as i should. but the show must go on. i have to go to work. but. on the bright side. today is pay day. which is always nice. but my whole paycheck is already gone before i get it. that trip to detroit is killing me. hopefully emily's mom will give me a check to cover some of the hotel fees. if not then i'm s.o.l. hopefully my dad is in a better mood when he gets off of work today. i really need to get those papers filled out for college. blah. ivory brightened my day today. texted me this morning to see how i was. he also said that he would trust me with owen (if only crystal didn't care so much.). but it made me smile. owen means a lot to him. and the both of them mean a lot to me. it makes me so happy that he would trust me with his son. =). hopefully ivory still feels the same as he always did (it still seems like it a bit, i know that he's just been so busy with work. things will get better... i hope) it still makes me smile that he gave me so much hope with this college thing. my parents are so negative about it. made me feel like i couldnt go. but ivory really helped me through all that. i love it when he randomly calls me. i miss him terribly (and he claims to miss me too). i'm just going to back off. and let things fall right into place. because nothings ever good if you force it.