|This too I can include|
Hopefully... today is the day. I was all set to give my notice on Friday, but bosses weren't there. So, today is the day. I lost some sleep this weekend. Mich and I had a good conversation. She told me she thought the smart thing for me to do would be to either have more classes lined up or a part time job before I leave. But, again emphasized that she will support me no matter what and would NOT be mad at me if I left before I had a part time job.
But still, I didn't sleep well. I don't know why I was so overwhelmed with stress over this... I guess its the last minute stuff. But, in the morning, I was still with my belief that I am ready to do this. I have classes lined up. Whether or not people sign up for them remains to be seen. And those are the risks I am aware of and have to take in order to do this.
I am just a few classes short of feeling 100% secure (money wise). I am SO freaking close. And the only way for me to get more classes is to give up this job. So, I have to take that step.
The Kids' Center that I mentioned a few weeks ago finally told me they are going to add a class for me on Thursdays. It works out because my thursday kids' class at EY isn't going to run. I still have the four other classes being marketed and I'll keep my fingers crossed that they run. I am also going to visit some retirement communities and homes and see if I could teach some gentle/chair yoga classes. And I'm being more flexible and accepting the fact that I should not be so picky with my time anymore.
Meanwhile, I'll still be looking for a part time job. And ultimately, if none of this works out... well, I will accept that and go back to the work force. But, honestly, I believe strongly that its all going to work out. By next year I will have a very strong class schedule and I won't ever have to look back at the Corporate World.
So, today is the day. I'm scared to death about having this conversation. About the CONVERSATION... and not what comes after that.
I'm sorry I haven't been writing and reading more. A few weeks ago, I fried my computer and I have seen signs on my new computer that perhaps I'm being monitored, so I'm limiting my at-work use of this site... It has just made my days even more tedious and boring and unbearable.
I just spoke with my boss for the second time today about this. They have actually asked if I would be able to stay through the end of July. I told him that I could but my hours are going to be a bit screwy in July. I know they are using me because they need me here to help train someone new and help with the transition, but I'm also using them for a bit more security because this gives me more time to make my transition and see if those new classes I proposed will run. So, it is working out. I'm on my way to being self-employed!