FRIDAY THE 27TH I DIDNT KNOW IF I WANTED TO HAVE SEX OR NOT

I MEAN I DID NOT WAKE UP THIS MOURNING THINKING I WAS GOING TO HAVE SEX WITH THIS KID( RONALD) WE HAVE BEEN TOGETTHER FOR 6 YEARS ON AND OFF AND AS WE GREW WE FOUND THAT THING THAT U CALL LOVE BUT WEITH ALL OUR PROBLEMS FROM THE PAST IS STOPPING OUR FUTURE. HE TELLS ME HE LLOVES ME BUT CAN MY MIND SPEAK LOUDER THAN MY HEART. WHEN WE HAVE SEX( LOVE) AS HE PUTS IT  IWANT EVERYTHING TO BE RIGHT AND THAT NIGGHT I JUST DIDNT LIKE ANYHTING, ( I THINK I WANT IT TO BE IN MY BED).LO LBUT BACK ON THE TOPIC I DIDNT MEAN TO LEAD HIOM ON BUT I THOUGHT I DI DBUT I WAS WRONG ........THE THINGS WE TALKED ABOUT I S LIKE TAKING A TIME MACHINE BACK ITTO THE PAST AS ANDREA & RONALD WE HAVE SO MUCH HISTORY WITH EACH OTHER IT DOESNT MAKE SENSE. BUT HE IS A BLESSING TO ME BECAUSE AS A YOUNG GIRL U WOUDNT THINK U WOULD FIND TWO PPL(OR BOYS AS I SHOULD SAY)BUT IM BLESSED TO THINK THAT HE LOVES ME, TO KNOW THAT HE LOVES ME AND I LOVE HIM BUT I DONT HTINK HE CAN SATISFIY MEIN A RELATIONSHIP AND MY BOYFRIEND CAN.......................THINGS SURE ARTENT CMOPLICATED BECAUSE I KNOW WAT I WANT FROM BOTH OF THESE BOYS I SAY I LOVE, BUT AM IM READY TO ENTER THE SEXUAL WORLD IS THE QUESTION I WILL ANSEWR LATER IN THIS DIARY

SIGNED &* A BEAUTIFUL DARK CHOCOLATE SOUL&***********

LOVE.PEACE.HOPE.