I rarely ever stay up past 9pm. I just wanted to watch a little tv before I go to bed. I was still working on my laptop until 745 while he was watching some horrifying, violent movie. When the movie ended I asked if there was anything good on and he said, 'yeah, my show is on'. His show has been on all night.

I'm sick of feeling like I am just a visitor here. I never feel at home anymore. Never a moment without noise, never a show I want to watch. He's not even working. I need to relax and enjoy my time off.

I'm getting so frustrated that I wake up angry and I can't stand it. I have a headache every single day now, I'm barely ever naturally in a good mood. I have to force myself to act like I'm happy.

I am so negative these days and I try so hard not to be but I just can't fight it.