This is exactly what I needed except a lot more of it.  The house almost looks like mine again, all the bedding washed and it's getting much less cluttered in here. I have been up since 5 am cleaning and since my husband is out with a friend, I actually have music playing and was able to run the dishwasher without him nagging about it!!!

I have a lot of nothing to catch up on and the more I relax, the more I realize how badly I needed to just slow down. I can't figure out why I need a break but I do. I know we all need to work and we all have stress in life - I'm no different from anyone else but it's like I'm not enjoying life anymore.

I am already scheduled for a shift at the facility despite hating it there but I have to work a bit, I just don't want to get all tired and stressed out. I want to look for a permanent job and I can't do that if I'm exhausting myself at the old place.

I will pick the kids up tomorrow and will have tons of energy and patience to do whatever they want for as long as they want and I haven't been able to do that for a long, long time. I am looking forward and really hoping that I get to spend lots of extra time with them this summer.

I will not be taking anything but evening shift until I am back to normal - no early morning shifts, no nights, no weekends until I am bored of catching up on things.