Beating me down,  down into the grown...

I'm lucky to live in Canada. I know this. I'm lucky I don't live in poverty. I know this.

I've been self-harming more. It will be several years before I can expose my leg again. Surprise. Still it's not the same as mutilating my arm, but I guess I'm biased.

I'm unsure, but I feel strong. I'm unhappy about my body, but I am confident.

There is this Czech exchange student in my school that I realllllllllllllllly want to fuck. I don't think I've ever met anyone who gives me the *swoon* effect. I don't even know. Maybe it's his Open Relationship status on Facebook, on that shirt he wears that says God Bless Atheism. :P

I'm feeling unproductive.

List of people I want to fuck

M. K- Czech exchange student

Viggo Mortensen

My biology teacher (female)

D. C - Junkie fuck up who was in my homeroom since 8th grade... I tried to not care about him, but yeah.

J. P - Random hippie guy in a hippie band, but is perfection in physical form. <3 dreadlocks

There! That's better.