Yes yes yes..i am still alive...i have been really busy with school, work, Nick, and James. Ugh. My son goes on his first canoe trip this Friday with his dad of course. Speakin of his father. He asked for sex the other day. In the past right after we split he would call and offer so much money for sexual favors. I never did it. But he has never given up. NOW when he knows i am in a time of need he is doing it again. ALL i can think is....U can't pay child support but u can pay for that?! Priorties much? So i turned him down as tempting as it was....5 minutes of faking for 200 dollars..hmmmmmm. LoL. But i have more self respect then that. So i told him i was with someone and how this was gettin old and he needs to pay child support on friday or i will be wrting down everytime he does not pay me for child support. Ugh..he makes me soo mad sometimes. He just doesn't get it at all. I am trying my HARDEST to make a better life for my child where i don't have to rely on my parents for support. And his father just makes me stress level ten times worse! I don't know what to do to get it through his head that he is hurting his son more then me. Him acting like a dick to every single day of his childs life and making me cry. Really!? I am just tired of it all. He also says that is moving to Colorado....i have been hearing this since before our son was born. He still hasn't done it..when he does GREAT...but i best be gettin money in the mail. And he keeps asking what r u going to do when i go to colorado..i said figure it out! I am not dumb....but i really hate paying ppl to watch my child...especially my own family. STUPID! And i sure in the hell don't want his family watchin him when i have to pay them too. I just hate it a lot! I will figure it out i guess....

This weekend is my getaway. I took saturday and sunday off to spend time with James. We have to go to one of his family functions to cookout and spread his uncles ashes on some reservation. I am glad i can be there for james....just kinda hope that the wind isn't blowing in the wrong direction. lol. We r supposed to get a Hotel room...really excited!!! 

Next Tuesday the move Obsessed comes out with Beyonce...ya know the one where Beyonce's husband get involved with the temp girl at work and the white girl goes crazy..HAHAHA! I get it...TOMORROW to watch..since i work at a movie store and i get to preview the movie before it comes out. I am soo excited for it! I need to watch the rest of True Blood. i have one more episode left. In August i get to  see my seasons of Desperate Housewives....Greys Anatomy.....Ugly Betty....and How I Met Your Mother! Really excited..i never watch the episodes on TV for the simple fact i never have time...so i just wait for them to come out on DVD. Gonna be a great month to watch all these.

So finals are TOMORROW and i really need to be studying for these..i have study saturday and all day yesterday at school and home. I am going to study today b/c i do extra cerdit on one study guide...so if it's filled out i will be alright. I then have a whole week off from school and start school back up on August 10th....the day my dad leaves for Turkey. I have four classes til October. I go 4 days a week and i am super nervous. I don't know how i handled 6 classes in high school..wait i didn't handle that very well either...and those didn't always have homework in them....so i hope i can manage.

Well...it's time for me to go study...and make sure my son behaves while i am studying.
I will be talkin to u guys all later! 

Berly