I would like to start by saying that this whole online diary thing is just facinating to me. A friend of mine shared the idea with me and now here I am...feeling quite ackward to say the least. The whole concept is just so foreign to me...last time I checked diaries were private and you didn't share them with anyone. Now here I am making an entry that the whole world (more or less) can read at the click of a button. Some may call it theraputic....I think a more appropriate word would be terrifying.

I suppose my hesitation to fully imbrace the idea of pouring your guts out online says quite a lot about me. I don't tell most anyone what I'm thinking or feeling on any given day as it is. Even as I fumble through this first entry I find it hard to write words that even just I might read. I am a firm believer that  the thoughts and feelings locked in my brain are currenty in the safest place possible . They are not spoken, not written, not documented in any way, shape, or form. They are mine and mine alone. I cannot be judged because of them or held accountable for them. I do not have to explain why they exist or defend their rightness or wrongness in any way. They can just be.

However, rumor has it that it can actually feel pretty good to share with others what you are thinking and going through. While not yet convinced this is 100% true, I'll give anything a shot once...