Last day of vacation bible study, I was dragging all day, the preschoolers kept me moving but all I wanted to do was go to sleep. Afterwards I took a sort of a cat nap and the baby played outside for a while then came in the house took a nap and then threw up. I have no idea why he threw up but he did. Sigh, oh and Brian called and I ignored his call then he texted me asking if I was going to respond to him. I responded, I said "every single day this last week you have been acting like an asshole to me, what do you want from me? I am not like you, I can't act like you do and forget everything that happened. I can't deal with your crap and don't want to, I'm sick of yourf I'm sorrys and don't want to hear it. There, now u have your response. So keep your dick in your pants and have fun." He said he would leave me alone and see me when he got back to which I responded, thank you. I really don't care that he is not here, its actually nice, but for some reason I feel worried. I guess because the baby threw up, and the PJ started crying and yelping and I don't know why. He must have hurt himself but I don't know how. I was in the kitchen and he was on the couch, and now he's acting all weird, I hope its nothing, there is no blood so hopefully he will be okay cuz I can't afford to pay any vet bills. —-------------------------------------------------------------- oh my P90X came today, maybe that is why I'm depressed. I need to go grocery shopping to follow the meal plan but I'm on limitted funds till next week and I have to buy food the kids will eat, so I will probably just follow a normal low carb high protien diet for a week before I can follow their diet, I suppose it isn't that important but I really wanted to follow the plan to the T. Oh well, my way will have to do for now, also I start my jui jitsu class on Monday and I'm really nervous because I'm not sure how to act. I mean it was funny to me that they tried to sell me on the year membership but I was like ya, I want the year and when Crosley Gracie said that training for a year would be better than a month because the no one learns anything in a month I was like, yah duh. But I didn't say that. Then he wanted to teach me to tie my belt and I was like, yah, I got that. I suppose he didn't believe me when I said io trained since I was 15, but its mostly stand up, although I do have some ground skills I want more. I keep telling myself to empty my cup and be sure to be respectful. Oh, on of the black belts is related to Chuck Liddel, I was like "ooooooooooo. I LOVE CHUCK LIDDEL" but I didn't say anything, he's like a cousin or nephew or something, he looks like him too. Also, I'm not sure how many women are in the class, but I am used to training with men, but the men I train with don't hold back, I suppose I will have to earn that at the bjj class. I am still training in kajukenbo, in fact I go tomorrow. I'm a little intimidated by my schedule and a little excited... Monday a.m. take Brian to work then hit the gym for cardio and stretching, then drop the baby off and go to jui jitsu class then home to do some laundry and clean and then pick up Brian and then after I go home to my karate class. Tuesday Brian will take the car and I will stay here to cook clean and do my P90X work out. I may write more later, gonna go get my last burrito for a while.