Hey diary,

Arggg, everything is getting complicated!

I have no idea why I woke up this morning planning to do myself a birthday party!

YES! I KNOW! ITS TOO LATE! but I just can't help to feel like, Oh, it is my 18th after all, you turn 18 once only, don't you?!

>.> I hate all that mind heart fighting..

So since it was " too early " to invite everyone [ of course you know i meant the opposite totally, I was just being ironic ] .. I had some problems.. who to invite, who to not..

it is nice to have a group of people in your birthday, but when you start imagening how its gonna be like, every gang on its own, you just stop there and decide to not invite everyone..

College friends are way different than high school friends.. I Just don't know who i should invite >.>"

Why am I thinking too much about it ? It's supposed to be something that would make me happy rather than upset and confused...

See that's why I didn't wanna have a birthday party in the first place..

It's nice to have everyone around you talking together, like all of you are best friends and what ever..

I don't really wanna worry about who ever is going to be around me..

Yeah, when you orgnaize your thoughts that way, you feel a strange relief! =/ just to get anything stupid out of your mind..

and the fact that I actually know no one here, not to mention that also no one does really know me around here..

lol.. I wrote too much..

That's what I had in my mind anyways.. so.. hmm..

Laters..

P.s: I still can't figure how to reply on the notes that you actually wrote humans..

But it was sweet that you welcomed me, and it kinda encourged me to " memorize " this site

Thank you for the tips, and thank you who ever their birthday were with mine.. In advance, Happy birthday to all of you

<3 and just thank you.. =/ I cant really descirbe that my thoughts actually mattered though they were stupid

So yeah, again.. see you when i see you =3