Somethings or should i say some people never change..well i didn't see him in the meeting yesterday, he didn't come to it so yeah i was thinking its a good thing, then again i was kinda sad because i did wanna see him. Well i guess i spoke to soon because he text me last night and said he wanted to see me and well what did i do, i went running..ugh I'm so dumb. Everything was going so good, we were talking and catching up and it was nice and well when i went to leave i gave him a hug and it was all over from there...one thing led to another and well you know..after everything he goes, i feel bad i cant believed i did that. I'm a horrible person. During that time all i could do was just stand there, he said he felt like dying because he felt so awful. All i could say was " you do this all the time this is the same thing you always do, so if you really feel this way then why do you always keep coming back to me" He couldn't answer it, all he said was he didn't want to see me anymore and that he couldn't do this. I felt horrible, does he not know i have feelings to..don't my feelings matter?? I just looked at him i couldn't say anything and i walked out. I cried all the way home, but honestly now that i think about it...things never change, He's never gonna change and yet i always go back...well I'm saying it now IM DONE. My heart cant take it anymore..i cant take it anymore..I'm so over it