"The strands in your eyes that color them wonderful, stop me and steal my breath..."

Hey world, so once again I'm brought back to OD. I don't know why I ever left in the first place. I think I just got so depressed that I lost my love of writing and expressing my feelings in my journal. I am going to try to not let that happen again. I need this place, cause without it I'm hopeless. Everything gets bottled up inside, and I resort to other things that I don't need in my life, like cutting.

Anyways, I don't really feel like typing up a crap load of information me because if you've read my diaries than you know me, and if your a new reader... I guess you'll just learn about me with each entry =]

So... Bryce's prom was last night. My hair wasn't cooperating with me one bit last night so I ended up just pulling back a little and leaving it straightened. Bryce came by around six and I heard my sister cooing about how cute he looked, so I went out to go look myself and I was in complete in utter shock because he was in a tux! He told me that he was not going to wear one because he hates dressing up and he would just rather wear a nice shirt. I was a little disappointed, but I wasn't going to force him to wear one. I had plans to buy him a flower and everything, but he said he didn't want one of those either so when I was doing my hair and got a text message from him asking if I bought him a flower I was a little skeptical. I looked over at my mom and said "You know... I'm starting to wonder if he got a tux..." Clearly he did! Haha. He looked absolutely adorable and just the fact that he surprised me made it even better. I love that he does stuff like that for me. I love surprises, he's amazing :D

Since I didn't buy him a flower, my mom thought of just taking a rose from her flowers and cutting it so he could wear it. We told all his friends it was "custom made" haha. I mean it actually kind of was... :p My corsage was beautiful too :) All in all I would say prom was great. Neither one of us are real big on dances and dressing up, and the dance did start out boring, but by the end of the night we were having a really good time. Bryce even surprised himself and had a good time. We didn't go to post prom, we ended up going on a ride on Highway 2 =]

Hmm... I really don't have to much more to say at this point, except that for the first time in my life I feel like I'm in a real relationship with someone... It's so weird to think that because thinking back on past boyfriends and remembering how I thought "oh my gosh they're just so amazing!!" when really they weren't anything special, it makes me realize how different things are with Bryce. I'm not just saying that either, I find myself doing things differently with him, and we even had our first fight last week. I'm not one that likes to fight, but I'm glad we did because it helps us understand each other better and it gives us that chance to talk about our feelings. I'm learning more and more about him and not just the good stuff, I'm learning about the bad stuff too. That's one thing I never did with any other guy. I used to just focus on the good and expect them to be my perfect guy. I've learned so much about relationships over the years...

Sometimes you just have to be someone's crying shoulder and as I've learned your definitely better when your older. Just be the greatest fan of their life =]

Love, Brandi Marie